After enjoying my mochi, it was down hill for my diet. My in-laws came home from a trip so they invited us out to eat. Before we left the house I was already thinking what am I going to eat? I even asked my fiance, "should I eat healthy or not?" He replied "cheat day." (I didn't even tell him about the mochi I ate.) So we are at Kuhio Grill and I'm staring at the menu like a voting ballot. Should I get my usual fried rice yakitori chicken loco without gravy or a salad? Should I vote for Hillary or Trump? Such hard choices! I decided to get my usual. The waitress then informs me that they ran out of yakitori chicken. That was probably a sign that I should get a salad. So what I ended up with was a fried rice Portuguese sausage loco with a sh*t load of gravy. (I neglected to order it without gravy.) Worse yet, I ate pretty much the whole thing. I didn't take a picture of it because I didn't want to be reminded of my poor decision.
Nobody is perfect. I'm striving for a healthy lifestyle, not a crash diet. There are going to be times that I slip up...especially with the holidays coming up. Today I feel really guilty and wish I made better choices. But we can't change the past, just learn from it. So I've learned I can't trust myself. If I make one bad decision, it will lead to another. Kind of like if you give a mouse a cookie.
What I have learned:
- Don't eat out unless I can trust myself to make good choices.
- Have a healthy decision on what I'm going to eat before getting to the restaurant. Don't even look at the menu.
- It's ok to say no. I'm a people pleaser. I felt bad to tell my mom "no thank you", I felt bad to waste money by letting food spoil.
- Is the guilt worth it? The guilt today is affecting me way more than the happiness I felt from indulging. I actually feel depressed.
- Even if I hit a speed bump I need to get back up and chase my goal.
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